, 2019

Apeiron, the Greek word for infinity, means at the same time limitlessness. One of my most complicated thought exercises as a child was to imagine infinity. I’ve always thought about space. I have moved away from our house from a bird’s eye view, up to the stars and into the black. But I couldn’t imagine that space should have no end. I didn’t know what it was supposed to look like. But apparently I needed this picture, otherwise I wouldn’t have tried to imagine it again and again. I tried to think of a limitless black. I tried to imagine that there was a limit and then nothing would come. Nothingness was unimaginable to me. The emptiness was unimaginable to me. I wanted a picture, but I didn’t get a logical and imaginable result. Sometimes I also tried to imagine that after the end of our space, God dwells in something like a garden. But I could only imagine God as a person and the garden not without a garden fence and certainly not without borders. God’s world was also finite for me, paradise had trees, a sky, a space and then black again. My most complicated thought exercises remained unsatisfactory. Space remained infinite and finite at the same time, because my imagination put an end to me on the subject of infinity. In the meantime, I have almost given up my thought exercises or they don’t follow me like they did when I was a child.
But I still like to look at the stars at night. I’m also fascinated by the idea of being able to look back in time. Because it takes so long for the light to reach Earth, I see the light of stars that have long since been extinguished.

I also like to look at the sea. The water grabs me because of its incredible expanse. When I’m on the water, I’m happy. I find it fascinating to watch the waves always come back. Always different waves. The same water over and over again. It is claimed that mathematics is the only thing that is really infinite. Even space is not infinite, let alone the sea.